Realization re: maturity

Shocking realization today: I am more mature than people older than me. Adults. Strange. I still don't think of myself as an adult, because my models of adulthood are my parents, and they are -- pretty much by definition -- ahead of me in personal development.


This post's theme word: はく, "to vomit." It came up in a podcast. I have been trying to think of a single scenario of my time in Japan, or even of imaginary textbook scenes, where it would be appropriate to say something like "はきたいの" -- "Because I want to vomit, that's why." (casual) Or maybe "たこお食べるとはきます。" -- "When I eat octopus, it makes me throw up." (formal and ineluctable cause-and-effect) I need to practice my Japanese more; I never know when I might need it!

I am an idiot.

Probably not news to anyone out there. I leave every meeting with my advisor feeling convinced of my stupidity, and resolved to work harder on the preparation for my next meeting. It never seems to be enough.

This post's theme conference-learned buzzword: "impostor syndrome."